night moves

Isn’t it strange how as each year closes in on itself, you find yourself in a state of hyper introspection - seemingly more in tune with yourself and those around you? My languid navel gazing is sometimes punctuated by bouts of sheer terror - contemplations on mortality, being, and perhaps most dreaded of all, purpose. 

Having said all this, certain facts remain. I am twenty four. I am at this very intersection in space and time. I feel different from the person who just a year ago was certain he was different from the person before that. I think if anything I fear stagnancy more than I value the ways I’ve shaped and been shaped by the very world I find myself intrinsically part of. 

Sifting through memory, the ones that shine brightest are the ones tethered to people. A marked difference from previous annual musings that always seemed centred on the self or places or things.

This leads me to a rather pronounced realisation - I think the value of life is derived from the people you share it with. I sit back and chuckle at the simplicity of my micro epiphany but realise that the trick, more than thinking or feeling this way, is living it.

It is getting late and if you were hoping for a yearly resolution dear reader, I’m afraid that’s as wishful & wistful as I’m willing to get tonight.


Songs:
Star Mile - Joshua Radin
Green Eyes - Coldplay
Kathleen - Josh Ritter
Golden - My Morning Jacket