blue blood

I'm sitting in the car watching a sea of break lights smudged by rain which has slowed considerably and is now falling in a gentle drizzle on everyone and everything that's on this street. I look out the window and all of a sudden I have a vested interest in the lives of everyone around me. I'm curious about these strangers I will never come to know. Two people sit in a blue car adjacent to mine. Are they lovers? Better yet, are they friends? What are they thinking? Are these people happy? Are they even wondering if they're happy? Thoughts culminate and I really like where I am although the lights turn green far too soon. Fascination ends. I watch as they pull away as we gradually slip out of each other's lives forever.

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"Just cause some cute girl likes the same bizarro crap you do that doesn't make her your soulmate." She laughs really loud when Tom's sister tells him this. We're watching the movie together because I tell her that it's good, that it's really popular with my generation and that everyone has seen it so she gives it a try. As the credits roll she allows herself a half smile which is probably meant to be wistful but can't help turn out sad. Like she's thinking: All the magic in the world has a sell-by date but she doesn't want to say it. Instead she says: I like the ending, it's very (she pauses for awhile, She's Got You High by Mumm-Ra is playing over the credits) hopeful. She gets up to wash her empty coffee cup and leaves me sitting on the couch wondering if I've made her a little sad. Love. Chances. Hope. Wonder. Dreams. Maybe all that is meant for when you're young.

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Why does my room smell like mint? Because I'm using a mint scented liquid air freshener.

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While inhaling mintyness I'm listening to:

Night Fighter - Raised By Swans

New Dawn Fades - Joy Division

A Waltz For A Night - Julie Delpy

Blue Blood - Foals